RWJ. Day 11

Reinfusion Day 4. It was a quiet Saturday, Sarah slept most of the day, she is pretty wiped out. I read a lot, walked a lot, and prayed for her to feel better soon. Zen came and brought me Falafal from Bosphorus, yummy! Late in the afternoon Sarah woke up and we watched movies; "Knocked Up", "He's Just Not That Into You", and now we are watching "It's Complicated". Sarah's white blood cells have continued to drop, unfortunately she is now running a temperature of 100.8, which means more blood tests and a chest X-ray, she is not happy about either one. I am pretty much at my wits end, she yells at the nurses and aids, does not want any more tests, just wants to give up, which certainly can't be helping. Tomorrow the nupagen shots start, hopefully we are turning a corner, she needs to believe that she is getting better and that she has a bright future. It is so hard for her to get past what she feels she is missing out on now, instead of focusing on what she will have in the future. Sarah you do have a bright, beautiful future ahead of you, please keep fighting! So many people love you and are rooting for you; you will get past this! Please let the doctors and nurses do their jobs, and you will get better. This is the hardest thing that dad and I have ever been through too, it is every parents nightmare to have to see their child suffering, but we love you and we can't wait until you are better. This emotional roller coaster is overwhelming, my heart breaks every time I see my child in pain. So dear family and friends, say a prayer for us, and then go hug, or call your children and tell them you love them. Happy Mothers Day to all, Love Maria