Reality vs. Expectation

Good morning, at least so far, everyone else is still sleeping! Yesterday we made the trek down to see Sarah's doctor at the cancer institute, the first of what will be weekly post transplant check-ups. Arrived and found a parking space right out front,(unbelievable) checked in and waited about 15 minutes,(average) Sarah's vitals good, now for the doctor...... I think/know that Sarah expected to hear that she was DONE, better, finished, good to go, no more meds, do what you want, have a nice life, good bye! In reality we heard; you have been through hell, still recovering, keep taking meds,(you can take the disgusting liquid only once a day) No driving, No swimming,(this one was not taken well) No large crowds, blood work every week for a while, MRI in 2 weeks, keep resting, see you next week. The tears started back at no swimming! Went down to lab for blood work, the techs can't access port, Sarah did not want to wait for a nurse, so she told the tech to just use her arm, and to be careful! Done for the day, can't find Zen, he is off looking for quarters for the parking meter. Sarah is unhappy with just about everything, except the news that she can cut down on the disgusting liquid medicine. It is very difficult to think about the future, when you feel like your here and now is horrible and limited. I do understand, she is unhappy about all the things she is missing or has already missed, but hopefully she will realize that it doesn't have to be miserable, that she doesn't have to be miserable!! It's all about attitude at this point; choose to see the glass half full my dear daughter; yes some choices are out of your control, but not all of them. You can choose to be happy, choose to make the best of your time and energy, choose to show the stupid cancer that you beat it, choose to make your future bright and happy! As for me, I am choosing less stress, less chocolate, and more happiness. Bye for now, Maria ;)