RWJ. Day 5

Sunday is a lazy day, even in the hospital! Sarah woke up not feeling well, the only things she can keep down are pretzels and Pepsi. We watched 2 movies so far today, "Footloose" ( the new version is no where near as good as the original), and our all time favorite movie "Music and Lyrics". Zen came to see us, and brought more supplies from home, then Greg made a surprise appearance after work. It was great to see them, we miss our boys very much, Sarah was exhausted after they left and slept for over an hour. I am tired too, doing nothing is exhausting! I have been trying to knit, but my heart just isn't in it, I am just not inspired right now. This is actually the second time I am trying to write this post, once again I tried to make corrections, and it disappeared, I never learn! Anyway, I am feeling blue today, seeing my baby in pain is literally breaking my heart. Sarah reads my blog, and doesn't like me to get too "mushy" so let me just say that for me, as a mother, this is a nightmare. PLEASE, God if you are out there and listening, make my baby get well quickly; she is young, bright and beautiful, and she has a lot of living still to do! We are counting down the days until Sarah's 20th birthday, 17 to be exact, all she wants is to be at home, and to be healthy and "normal" again, oh and let us not forget, she wants a car! That's my girl, wish big sweetheart. This horrible cancer is like a thief, robbing my daughter of her health, youth and innocence; she is the bravest person I know. Keep fighting Sarah, I know you can beat this; there is a beautiful future waiting for you. Sarah has always risen to a challenge, I am confident that she will find something positive in this horrible experience, and make the world a better place.  Together we will get through this, one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Thanks for listening, maria